Long time no blog. *sigh* Things have been stressful as of late and I'm afraid I'm on a path to burning out soon. Headache every night this week; yesterday was a vicious migraine that took hold of my stomach and ordered an evacuation. The kids have not been helpful, school is ...frustrating, and my love has been gone all week (contributing to the non-helpful behavior of the older three, the baby, of course, is happy as long as she is in mommy's arms.) I apologize to all who read this for not being even slightly entertaining. I shall try harder, but no guarantees until after I finish midterms this week. Remind me, please, why I thought going back to school was going to be fun. And to think I have two more classes starting next Monday. Surely I'm crazy, if not, I will be soon enough. Ahhhhhhh.................
Cleansed the house last night. Nothing extreme, just a quick, light cleansing to tide things over 'til we get the house set up: then we'll due a full cleansing and warding. After which, husband and I spent the remainder of the evening engaged in something we've not done much since early in our relationship. (No, not that! We've four kids together, after all...)
We laid out our beautiful Indian tapestry (which will be back on the wall once the house is put together,) and used it as a casting cloth/ He on one end with the new Russian Tarot deck we just got, me on the other with my beloved Hanson-Roberts. Back and forth we went, one would ask a question, then the other would ask a question based upon that reading. We favored the 10 card, Celtic Cross spread for it's scope and breadth.
The results were intriguing. The way that synchronicity has been running rampant in my life recently, I'm, obviously, expecting something to come soon (but what...?) but what the cards are hinting at is not what I had in mind. Much to ponder and reflect upon. Additional oracles and divinitory methods to be consulted.
And, if anyone can shed further insight on to the meaning of fireflies (the most common of the "coincidences," not the actual creature, but the word keeps coming up,) feel free to pass it on. :)
We've been in the new house for about five days now. Needless to say, there is a small trail winding amongst the piles of boxes that leads from one room to the other. We are slowly getting things pulled together, but none of the larger furniture has made it yet, so it feels as if we're camping ...indoors.
This weekend has been a surprisingly busy one. The town we live in has a rather odd ordinance of only allowing rummage sales during one weekend of the year. And, as we have just bought a house and do need to update and repair it some, we went rummaging to procure goodies for this feat.
Granted, it may not be exciting to most people, but I had a blast. We managed to get pick up nearly enough supplies to completely remodel the master bathroom. Brand new toilet, internal pieces, and caulk, picked up for less than $30. And we also picked up a snazzy new light fixture, and heating vents (that match,) too.
But, my excitement came, more so, from the books we found. We found The Hobbit and the Lord of the Rings Trilogy, a book on cartomancy, the book for the Motherpeace tarot deck, the Russian Tarot of St. Petersburg book and card set, and a hefty tome on Aromatherapy. Combine this with acquiring the first 5 books out of the Dune series this last week (thank you! :D) and my library contents currently have me in a state of bliss. Ah. Now, if only I didn't have school to worry about I might be able to squeeze in some recreational reading time (nevermind the four kids 5 and under or having just bought a house that needs a tad bit of repairing.) Perhaps next semester.
Outside last night with Atticus and Aurora. I had rescued one of the kittens from Aurora, as she was loving him to strongly for his taste (and Aurora's arms bear proof of his opposition,) and stayed outside for a bit as it was finally cool enough to be outside comfortably (it had dropped to the 80's after being mid 90's all day.)
We decided to take a little walk about the yard, see what random lovelies were growing about (found a lovely Thistle plant that I'm going to be picking a bit from...) We had gotten to the far corner of the yard, in a secluded spot behind the shed. I was looking for Nettles when Atticus yells out, "Look, Mom! The Moon!" I turned, smiled, and blew our Lady a kiss. Aurora, at my feet, repeated the action, blowing a kiss and laughing.
Well, I'm happy to announce that everything on this site is finally fixed and the way I like it to be. Thank you, tech support, for putting up with my complaints, but, please, next time you fix something, don't mess up something else in the process.
This entry is short and entirely random as yesterday I started school again! I took a break just before the wee babe was born and now I'm back in school for my third semester after my seven year long break. Going fulltime, which at first I was very apprehensive to do, but I've only two years left to my degree and I don't want it to take any longer than that.
Husband is away at work but reports an interesting bit of synchronicity today, directly relevant to our entire plan (of which, I am still adamantly superstitious enough to not reveal anymore details other than that this is something that will bring me and my family true joy, and the Universe is actively aiding our attainment of said goal lately.) I, however, have had only odd "coincidences."
In other news, tomorrow marks the last day of school for Atticus. Next year, first grade, he will be homeschooled. It's been fun, frustrating, and mostly disappointing. I expected more out of both schools he attended. But, you know how that old saying goes: if you want something done right, you have to do it yourself. And so I plan to.
Today my marks my entrance into the world of adulthood. Nevermind the husband, four kids, right to vote, and missing out on the "kids eat free" deals at numerous restaurants. Now, yes, now, I am truly an adult. And why now, you ask. Well, lovely reader, because today ...we bought our first house!
Yes, I, too, am now tied to a mortgage, the quintessential sign of being a mature, responsible adult. Nevermind the fact that I go barefoot nearly everywhere, or my compulsion to jump in puddles and chase butterflies, for I own house and that makes me, undeniably, a grown up.
Wine to celebrate. Have a glass of Cabernet with me and let's think happy thoughts at the future together.
One of my favorite metaphors is ripples, in fact they're sort of a fascination of mind and a point of focus for me as a Pagan Minister. I like to use the analogy of tossing pebbles and watching the ripples spread. It shows how every action, and inaction, we make causes change larger than we can ever have proof of, that just like the pebble tossed into a pond, the effects literally ripple outward till they reach the far shore. And, just like a pebble, these actions can be small and still have a remarkable reach.
So, here is my challenge to you. I want you to make one small positive change within your life, anything. Remember, it has to be something small, something practical that you can actually achieve but does require some effort on your part. Ideally, this change should be something you choose to stick to every day, some sort of permanent change that effects your daily actions.
Just one small simple thing, that's all I ask. Maybe you'll start taking shorter showers, or spend more time outside, or try to smile at everyone you interact with. Just one small, little thing.
Toss a pebble ...and watch the ripples spread.
Not sure what I did (but I must have done something..) but suddenly now most of the sidebar-----> isn't loading! Very frustrated about this as I'm not sure how to fix it. But, rest assured, those whose links are usually found there, you are still there, your button just isn't showing at the moment ...along with my RSS feed, categories, archives, and twitter button. Hmm. Suggestions welcome to what went wrong and how to fix it.
I've not touched the html, I stick to the default editor mode which is a lovely WYSIWYG program. Perhaps the problems on my host's end, they did just do some sort of upgrade last week. Argh. So, yes, any suggestions and I will love you for it (seriously, I'm a Taurus: that's all it takes. :D)
Throwing the Bones
Whether you're struggling with something spiritually or in everyday life, bone divination can highlight areas where focus is needed and identify alternative ways forward.