The Moon always affects me so much more strongly when pregnant. Emotions flow easier, more freely. I laugh more, I cry more, but in general I just feel more. I’ve a tendency toward apathy, shutting down my emotions, hiding them away to deal with at another time, a safer time, a more “appropriate” time, though it’s hidden with a smile. This is something more difficult to do now, and for that I am glad. I am glad to feel my happiness more fully and I do love that when I am genuinely embracing my joy it spreads to the people around me. Stress levels recede and smiles appear, along with unexpected and sometimes surprising laughs.
Although my emotions are flowing more easily now, and my awareness of connections and energy flow is also stronger, I find myself at a time when consciously directed energy flows less easily. But, this, too, is normal, something I’ve encountered with every pregnancy. I’m not supposed to be reaching out now, not supposed to be sending forth. There is internal work to do, focus that needs to be maintained, a little one for whose approach things must be made ready. I need to be made ready.
There are steps that I take at this time, every time, to get to that point of readiness. Energy work is a huge part, not sending forth, but manipulating my own internal flow and the way Universal energy flows into me. Previous births have shown that this is hugely beneficial, for me and baby, for so many reasons. I’ve also started with daily visualization of actually giving birth and remembering the births of each of my other children. This, not so much to encourage or induce, but, rather, as a form of mental preparation. There are other little things that take precedence now, too. Communion with my Gods and certain Spirits that I work with is also crucial, as is spending much time in meditation and ritual, and doing my spirit breaths. None of this is hard to engage in, it’s all a sort of natural consequence to the forces at work within me right now, as natural and unavoidable as the introspection that comes with the Dark Moon (though, granted, remembering to do the spirit breaths more does require some effort...)
Deep breaths and gentle thoughts. Move with the energy that moves through you.